Quandary

I'm in a bit of a quandary right now. I've been playing solitaire on my computer rather than pull out any of my needlework projects. Now, solitaire is addictive, but it's not so addictive that I shouldn't put it down and go on to other stuff.

And I realized--I'm not having fun with my needlework right now. I'm frustrated. And I really don't know what to do.

With my knitting, I've got two projects nearly, nearly done. And I can't stand to look at either of them. The cure for that is simply time. I'll pick them up again in a few days.

My one really tempting knitting project is out of handspun, but I'm at a standstill there, too: I'm out of yarn, and can't spin more until this sore tailbone (slid down half a flight of stairs holding a cat, thus unable to put my hands out to stop myself) heals and I can sit in the right position. That should be just a few more days. I hope.

My current applique block (I'm working on an album quilt with twelve different blocks) has a difficult shape, repeated four times. I'm still a beginner, so this is sort of like eating my vegetables--I want to get it done, so I can go on to other stuff, but at the same time, I don't really want to do it.

As much as I'm a process crafter, I can't get myself to simply enjoy each stitch for its own sake--I find I have to be into the larger process. On the other hand, I'm such a process crafter that I'm struggling with my recent push to finish things. I have many, many too many projects started but not finished, and this bothers me, but so does trying to steer myself into something just to finish it.

So, I'm stumped. (I have some non-crafting things on my mind, too, that are probably feeding this feeling.) I really, really want to chuck it all out the window and start something new, but I know that's not going to help for very long, and then the new thing just turns into another UFO.

Harrumph.